Life, as I see it

 I was a people pleaser for around 4 decades, until I happened to realize and understand, my mistake. Trying to please people - listen or agree to their choices, when you really want something else, or initiate conversation again, even when they showed egoistic ways, were common behavior patterns, for me.  I couldn't be assertive for my own requirements, trying to be 'nice' but struggled within. This also made my expectations from others, very high. However, other people would make their choices, as they wanted and also happened to take me for-granted many a times, as I had agreed to them, in the past.  I would go on and on, trying to put others interests first but then there were days, when my emotions would outburst and result in a fight. Even after such a fight, it would be me seeking forgiveness, with them and this cycle repeated many times, within my close circle of family & friends. This kind of submissive way of relating with others doesn't work good for eith...

श्रीकृष्ण की पवित्र मित्रता का एहसास जब सुदामा को होता है,  ऐसे एक काल्पनिक प्रसंग पर यह कविता आधारित है  मैंने अपना समझा, सम्मान दिया  इसीलिए तो जरूरत पर कुछ माँगा, मैं  बोलता रहा , तारीफ करता रहा,  मित्र दाता बना बस देता रहा  अपनी भावनाये कह डाली सारी , वह तो राजा था, उसने कुछ न कहा  बस शांति व प्रेम से सुनता रहा, अपनत्व से, इज़्ज़त से देता रहा  मेरे होने न होने से उसको क्या , वह तो था, समृद्ध और संपन्न  मैं यह सोच, कभी गया कभी नहीं , खुद ही जो समझा, फैसला किया  जब उसकी सच्चाई जान पड़ी , तो अश्रुधारा बह निकली है, था गहन प्रेम उस देने में  , मांगने का हक़ समाया भी मैं तो कुछ भी बोल आया , वो मेरी परेशांनी छुपाये रहा, किसी से कुछ भी नहीं कहा , मित्रता निभाई कोई एहसान नहीं  वह भी मुझे याद करता था, तकता था नेत्रों से, राह मेरी , राजा था, कुछ कह न सका   पर महसूस ह्रदय में करता रहा  हाय यह क्या सोचा , क्यों ऐसा किया,  सम्पन्नता से मित्रता को क्यों तोला, वह भी इंसान है, भावनातमक है , प्रेम की उचित प्रतिक्रिया थी देनी...

I have treated Veena (name changed) for asthma and her bad condition of continuous dry cough, got better over last 2 weeks. She was living in a dirty manner, unable to do much, feeling weak, whole body showing dryness. Her attitude showed dejection from others and self, as she never received care; she would move her own hair harshly while getting treated. Now, she is cleaned-up, her dress is more neat, she doesn’t cough during my entire stay of few hours but just once but keeps sitting comfortably, waiting for her turn to be treated. Everyone tells, how her cough has reduced drastically and she is much better. She also tells that she is not coughing anymore, able to sleep better, though there is still some cough in the night. Yesterday, she told me she is now able to take out her own clothes, take bath, wash her clothes and thus do her daily chores, while earlier she was taking help from others for all these. While, I was treating her, she kept looking at me, I asked what i...

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